Ironically Saddening

2008-01-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

It's a new year a new start..Well i guess i'm a 'lil too late for a new year's post eh.?Better late than never=D

Right..A new year..A new new year's resolution..Basically my new year's resolution always stays the same..Simple yet the simplicity of attaining them is one that leads us astray..To be a better person in life and in the life of others..And of course..MORE MONEY..=D

Everytime i try to be a better person,the thought of it makes me wonder.People take it for granted..Never knowing that it affects one's motto..I tried to be humble,i tried to be as easy i could be.Am i such an asshole who needs his ass-wiped?A day in my life is nothing but a page in my history..Got to go..

Isitthatdifficulttobemyfriend..?iwonder..

2007-10-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

Well..Not very big fishes..But oh well..Just for the fun of it..=)

Woh..!!I guess i've not been blogging recently eh..I mean a long time..Wahaha..Guess my blogging days have gone from a 'lil to way WAY 'lil..Either i've been too lazy to blog or i'm finally caught up with loads of activities to keep my life busy again..Well..a'lil of both i guess..Feeling so so guilty right now..I actually skipped training on Sat for an Ubin trip with my angler pals..Well..The 'lil kid needs a break yeah..?It's always so coincidental that always two inevitable activities have to come crashing on the same day..Damn it..Take the last time for instance..Both rock-climbing trail and archery trail were on the same day..Obviously i had to go for archery..Then i comes to Sat..Both Ubin trip and archery fun day crashed..AGAIN..!!Well..I already gave up my off-shore trip at malaysia with my friends for the polite competition..I couldn't let this one pass..So i went for the Ubin trip..Not a very productive trip i would say..But we certainly did some bonding together..Sadly that girl year2 or 3 did not go..Ahhh..She's hot man..She's hot..The activities that i'm really involved in right now..It's pretty hard to get a hot chick fishing or shooting with ya..I guess maybe golf would..?Nah..How bout horse ridding..?Hell No..!The last time i saw a hot chick in such sports is when my Gram's hair were still black..Yeah..I never did..

I's Pure

2007-10-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

Well here's a little of what i've been doing the past few weeks..Watching animes and movies and television shows..!!A stumble upon an anime I's pure..It's about a one-sided love story..Very ironically in love..First the guy did everything he could to win the girl's heart and finally he did without knowing at all..Thus the girl thought it's a one-sided love where by the guy thought so likewise..Haha..Very brave story and so ought to be tag an ironically and enduring love anime show..Very short..Only 6episodes

http://www.tv-links.co.uk/listings/3/5656

Sunset

2007-10-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

Well,this is the picture i took from my balcony after my afternoon nap..Rather blurred though..But it's one of the nicest Sunset I've ever seen everyday..The facade of the buildings..The end of one's day..

Hmm..Was about to blog this yesterday but it kinda slipped my mind for awhile..A little lethargic yesterday so right after training i slacked..Slacked a lot in fact..A rather unproductive day i guess and so is today..The irony of saying i want to train hard..I've been slacking way too much..A day absent from training does feel guilty..As so i wasn't in the right state of mind the whole day,restless and easily annoyed..Ugh..And so i thought the abundance of rest is needed..My life today evolves around the word/ world of IRONY..I guess it pretty much sums up the title of my blog huh..Ironically Saddening..I ain't the first..

2007-10-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

Well,it's been two weeks since i last post..Right..?Oh well..Nothing much to post anyways,it's been training training and more training..Hmm,i seem to miss out fishing these few weeks,guess it's time to buckle up my fishing gears and kakis for the killer spot..=D

I was reading the daily bread my aunt gave me a few days back..And it says whoever believes in the name of God will be saved..I was doubting the words of Gospel and being ignorant to the fact that one shall not question each's faith..I was in bed yesterday asking God if he is really true..?I asked God to show me that he's true,to give me strength in the faith of God..And i went to bed thinking that nothing would be answered..Sunday..I woke up and the first thing i did was turn on the television..(NOT something i would never do..)And so happens that the show A Walk To Remember was on..It's a love story kinda based with strong faith for one another and faith with God..Holy Mollies!!God not only answered my doubts but gave me hope..

Love is like the wind,We cant see it..But we can feel it..So is faith and hope..Agape

Being an introvert by nature made me an extrovert in the reality my acquaintances see..Just like the facade of the rising Sun..My soul hides within the shadows of the rising Sun..As pessimistic i could be,I am optimistic most of the time i am accompanied by my acquaintances..

2007-09-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

Been really lazy lately..Dont really have the mood to blog..Lets start from Monday then..We had a rather small gathering at Silie's house..BBQ..Derrick and i went there early to get the food and necessity ready..Fished for our dinner at Silie's pond..Played with dogs..Oh by the way..Silie's house is HUGE..He's family runs a pottery business..So everything there's interesting..At night,Silie brought us to watch FIREFLIES..So COOLL!!It's been ages since i saw them..Well..Talk and played,most of the people left..So Silie brought the remaining few for a tour and we played majong till the next morning..Headed home..Tuesday-SLEPT WHOLE DAY..HAHA..Wednesday which is today..Well had to get up in the morning to prepare for my interview with the SYFC..Sighs* I think i screwed up the interview..To cheer myself up a little..I met my mom for shopping!!YAY..But sadly only bought a jumper..Armani Exchange..My brother came so did his friend..We went for dinner..My mommy went home and we went to catch a movie..Training tomorrow..Guess i have to end my play days and start getting pumped up..Toddles*

2007-09-23T15:35:00.000+08:00

Haha..What a scene..=P

Need a drink..?

Okay..Guess i've taken too much a break from blogging..It's been almost a week i guess..Well basically my schedule's been rather tight/packed..It's either training or fishing..HAha..Went training in the morning last Monday with Chow and Derrick..And off to meet Rasmi and friends for roller-blading..While making our way there..At the entrance of the under-pass..I spotted something really or rather obscene..A freaking pad was being stick to the wall..Haha..I even took a picture with it..Can't blame..Such thing dont really happen twice..=DThen it's been training training and training the whole week..One meal a day and that's dinner..Nic called me on thursday night asking to go fishing..Hell yeah..!!Never say no to fishing..Nic once said.."Fishermen fish to live..But we anglers live to fish!!" Yeah..Met up..And we started throwing some bread to attract the lanpans..So the bigger guys would come and have their breakfast..After awhile..In the mist of talking to Nic..My line went zZzZZZzz..I set the hook,wack that fellow..Started reeling,Nic shouted what fish..??Likely i would know since that bugger has yet to surface..Finally..I gave it a last set,Bang!!It jump..Chey..It's just a PB..Not really big at all..4.2lbs,it's a baby..-.-Well it's end of the week..Happy things happened once in a while but this sat's training..I see friendship being pulled apart..I see a whole new skeptical story about to being..I see sadness in people's eyes..I see trouble coming ahead again..Fingers crossed* I hope things do turn out great when i'm around..=)

Till next time..

Tarot card..

2007-09-20T01:33:00.000+08:00

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
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Memories of Nobody..Bleach..

2007-09-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

Memories of Nobody(Bleach Movie)

Japanese:

Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da

Anata ga boku o aishiteru ka aishitenai ka
Nante koto wa mou docchi de mo ii n da
Donna ni negai nozomou ga
Kono sekai ni wa kaerarenu mono ga takusan aru darou
Sou soshite boku ga anata o aishiteru to iu jijitsu dake wa
Dare ni mo kaerarenu shinjitsu da kara

Sen no yoru o koete anata ni tsutaetai
Tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinaiSono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte
Kizutsuitatte suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Kimochi o kotoba ni suru no wa kowai yo
Demo suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da

Kono hiroi sekai de meguriau yorokobi o kotoba ja iiarawasenai ne
Dakara boku-tachi wa hohoemi iro azayaka ni sugiru aki o doremi de utatte
Fuyu o se ni haru no komorebi o machi
Atarashiku umarekawaru dareka o mamoru you ni to

Kita michi to ikisaki furikaereba itsu de mo okubyou na me o shite ita boku
Mukiaitai demo sunao ni narenai
Massugu ni aite o aisenai hibi o
Kurikaeshite wa hitoribocchi o iyagatta ano hi no boku wa
Mukizu no mama de hito o aisou to shite ita

Sen no yoru o koete ima anata ni ai ni yukou
Tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte
Kizutsuitatte suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni suki tte tsutaeru
Sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa

ENGLISH:

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I loveIt’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell youI want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world

Busted..-.-

2007-09-13T02:14:00.000+08:00

Haha..Finally completed my drawing on my hip-flask..=D
The negative view of it..

MAnnNNnnn..More and more people are finding out about my blog..How do they do that..?That i've got to hand it to 'em..Boohoo..Oh well..These are stuff i have to expect having a blog anyways..So i dont really care..Haha..Pisang Mama tag my blog..!!Now that's an honour..=) Anyways just blogging for fun..A big day ahead of me today..Fishing in the morning not with friends..But NP anglers..Never seen them before..Oh well..Then in the noon..Archery training..This time..At ZhenHua..Wow..Pretty loads of first-times for a day yeah..?A new chapter of life's opening up..This time..I will focus on the door opened..=)

A day dedicated to fshing..

2007-09-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

Nicholas's catch
It's just heavenly..
Nice..??I can be a photographer
Had a rather okay day today..Slow and relaxing i would say..Met up with Nicholas and Yau Leong and headed to beach road to do our shopping..Haha..The always budget Yau finally had to balls to spent money and bought a new rod and line..That pussy..Got the same line as me..Same COLOUR too..10lbs fire line..PINK..HAHA..Hot pink..Anyways we spool-ed our reels and headed home to get our stuff for a last min fishing trip..Headed down to the spot and walked alot..Wow..Hits for today..Both Yau and Nicholas landed a special species of PB and i..?BLANKED..Fished till around 7+ 8pm i guess..And we headed home..Before we went off i kinda took a snap shot of the place..It's real nice..While walking home..I kinda saw a little orange light slowly making it's way through the sky..IT'S A SHOOTING STAR!!!!This one's different..Trust me..Usually the shooting stars i see goes by real fast..But this,it goes so slowly as if it's there so us humans can take our time to see..For more auspicious people..Take their time to pray..Well that's it for today..Tomorrow fishing trip canceled and i guess i'll just go PPCC for training..

Fishing trip rigged..!!

2007-09-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

Nicholas's Kim with his slicer..
Nicholas's catch..Kim
Nicholas--A type of cat fish..
Eric and his Kim
And me with my sizeable KIM..=/

Fishing trip today to farm way 3..This time it's a fishing pond that instilled a C&R rule aka Catch& Release rule..That's the way to do it..The day started off at 6am maybe..?When to meet Nicholas at his house bus stop..Eric's dad brought us for breakfast and Morgan's mom brought us to farm way..We started fishing..Goldfish as bait..8am we started and all my friends already had at least a catch by noon..The only person left with blanks is me..Damn..Moments later,i hit one..FUCK shit..A bloody jee poon fish..Eeee..Every angler's bad luck fish..Haha..Not really..So we continued fishing,tried a few different baits,chicken liver,kng,cat fish and the super bait an uncle gave us..Everyone started hitting here and there..I still got none..Sigh..At early noon..I finally got some hits..I hit one big fat Kim Bah Loh..I'm guessing around 8lbs around 4kg maybe.?But before Morgan could get the boga the bloody fish throw my hook out..Shit..So it isn't counted as a catch..A boga by the way is a lip grip which is commonly used by anglers to grip the lips of a fish to weigh and take pictures..All in all..I hit more than 7fishes..But only caught 2..Either the leader burst or the fishies throw hook..Finally i hooked up another Kim..This time loosening my drag to prevent the hook from flying out..Hold that bugger there and kept the back tension..The uncle came and unhooked it for me..While doing that..I carelessly left my rod on the ground,and the uncle threw my hook back into the pond..He boga the bugger and gave it to me to have my picture taken..And at that time..Another Big Kim i'm guessing around 20lbs more than 10kg took my line..My rod almost flew into to pond..The uncle grab it,set that bugger hard..AND the line burst..!!Argh fuck!!If i hook the other bugger up,it would be first time a double hook up on the same rod..!!FUCK..We fished till 1830..Man you should take at us..We were burnt..!!The sun burnt was so bad we turned black..!!HAHA..Well..That's all for today's fishing trip..Nothing happening..All of us despite of landing many fishes..We aint that happy..Our main motive of going there was to hook the big cats..!!The next time we go back there..It'll be it..=)Back to luring now..!!

Mommy's Birthday..!!

2007-09-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

Reminiscing..Hmmm...
The constipated us..HAHA..Cute..
My new Zauber 2000..!!!
The knot i tied with a cheery's stalk using my toungh

Mommy's Birthday today..!!Well i started my off with shopping at beach road for tomorrow's big day..!!FISHING!!I expected myself to spent maybe around the most 50bucks..Almost bought a Lemax RedSword rod for myself..Damn the action's nice though it'll soften fast but still more sensitive then my Lemax BlackRose..It's like a couple rod..Haha..That's what i think that is..=P
Anyways..When i touch the Zauber 2000 reel..I couldn't resist anymore..Haha..8 bearings man..It's as smooth as hell..104bucks..After less it cost me around 78bucks..Plus my leader size 4hooks for tomorrow's event,i normally do luring..Hate baiters..Boohoo..Some weights..Total i spent almost a 100bucks..Over spent..Again..Went home,slacked around and went for dinner at Waraku..Japanese..oOHad loads of food..And finally..The DESERTS..!!ICE-CREAM..After deserts..I tried something really dumb..But i did it.!!Hee=D I tied a knot with a cheery's stalk if that's what you call it with my toungh..!!Unbelievable..?Believe it.!!I can always do it in front of you again if anyone wants me to..Bleah..That's all for today i guess..

I was at the air-port last sunday to send Wilkie off..After that we took a bus home..We sat down and the next stop..Loads of old folks prolly after work from the factories or something came up..One by one,each of us gave up our seats to them..The smiles on their faces were just satisfactory..=) Standing up looking down at them..My heart ached a 'lil,i held back my emotions and thought to myself..If only i am the richest kid in the world..I'd create a fantasy home to house every folks there till they're finally at rest..Yes they can sometimes be irritating and noisy..But everytime i look back,dont you just feel embarrassed and degraded just by getting mad or irritated by them..?I know i do..I'm trying my best to change this thought,they've worked all their life just to give us the life we're having today,be it rich or poor..We owe them what we are today..

iseeyoufinallyhavesomeoneyoucanloveandlovesyou..i'mgladyou'recontented..=)Somehowijustdontfeelathing,idontfeelsad,idontfeeljealous,idontfeelheartbroken..hmmm..?justwannatellyouthat,neversayyouaintworthitoranything,youareinnopositiontodoso..Wellthat'swhaithinkthatis..
Ifsomeonechoosesyou,youareeverything,iguess..sobysayingyouaintworthit,you'rekindainsultingtheperson..well..you'llalwaysbeaoldersisterioncehad..=)winks*

A day to end my drought

2007-09-03T17:33:00.000+08:00

Damn..This two weeks really've got me going..Came back from Langkawi last friday..The next day..Pesta Sukan Competition..Sat and Sun..Real tiring..Well..Yesterday was like..So cool..I was so so so high..It's team event elimination round..Each team consisting of 3Archers..I was in the first team..NP-1 we had more fun rather than being stressed up..Archers there are friendly and entertaining..My team got 1st..!!!Sadly during the individual round on Sat i did not perform well at all..Can't blame me right..?I just got back from Langkawi while every archer were busy training..I still am glad i went for the Langkawi trip..!!=) Well..I still managed to get a spot in the top 10..I got 5th..!!Supposed to go out with Rasmi and the other archers today for cycling..Woke up having a major flu and fever..Sigh..Minitues later my friend called and asked to go fishing..Ironically i agreed..How can i ever say no to a fishing trip..?Heee=D Met up at serangoon mrt,Headed down to Pandan and started fishing..I hit PB(peacock base) of acceptable size..I'm guessing about 2lbs..rained..But we continued..Man is so cold..Tomorrow..Heading down to beach road to do some shopping for tackles and stuff to prepare for wed..Haha..Patin here i come..!!Speaking about shopping..I'm so deprived of SHOPPING..it's time i start my shopping spree again..!!=)

Back from Langkawi..

2007-08-31T14:51:00.000+08:00

Well..I'm finally back from my Langkawi trip..Million Smiles*Okay here it goes,it started out in school actually..Met up with teo,KS and yang yang,and later joined the 1C1 people..4 of them,Abu,Nuru,A-ma and lin chan..So it's 8 of us..Man the bus trip was long,16hours of journey and about 2hours of ferry ride to get to the island..Phew,but we had fun during the bus ride we went high while the others were asleep,barely slept i guess..Although there were some mishaps here and there which made us both sad and pissed,but it never will kill our high-ness..HAHA..Laughing's what we do most..It's really our daily dose of medication to keep us awake,happy and going..Laughter's what that bonded us..=)Although there we loads of bonding session with one another,loads of games going us to keep us bonded..I guess the purpose of this trip is not only to have fun but also to bond as one family..I guess the five days of intense bonding activities did not bond us as much as how i felt deep down..Looks,actions and behaviour still can be deceiving..I wouldn't be as tormented as i am now if outsiders took my stuff..It's our own people..People from the same bus,people that have gone through the same torment of having to sigh every time it rains..One or maybe some of them STOLE my mobile phone..A-ma lost hers too..So people..I can't be reached for the time being..My mobile's barely a month old..What a pity..

Today's Horoscope

2007-08-26T03:12:00.001+08:00

Today's Horoscope 26August

Be patient if a certain social invitation isn't being greeted with all the enthusiasm you had hoped for. Many of the people on your guest list have a lot going on in their lives that they aren't letting you in on -- and their time is not quite their own. This is nothing you should take personally. Consider rescheduling or changing the venue. Working around the needs of other people isn't inconvenient for you, and it will be a lovely gesture of how important they are to you.

Sigh..And i had to be a Leo..Why can't i be the people instead f the you the horoscope's talking about..?I guess it's just us Leos..Never do we put ourselves first..Right..?

In-existence in the eyes of a perfect stranger,you..

2007-08-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

Your fragile, folded wings

Are just tired from the pure blue sky

You don't have to force your smiles for anyone

It's okay to smile... for yourself

That lonely feeling keeps creeping up on me

A single candle burns still inside

There shouldn't be an expensive chandelier in a wild place like this

Can i really bury it all with empty words?

I don't even know anymore...

As long as we can swim freely in our dreams

We won't need that sky anymore

Even if you can't let go of the past

I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow

Your fragile, folded wings

Are just tired from the pure blue sky

You don't have to force your smiles for anyone

It's okay to smile... for yourself

Hairspary..

2007-08-25T02:59:00.000+08:00

Man if you ever watch the movie hairspary..??HAHA..FUCK it man..It's humour humour and more humour..With a 'lil disgust..Okay..LOADS of disgust nearing the end..Man..It's just so wrong seeing a hot guy kissing a fat fuck..UGH..EWwWw..Anyways..Met up with Amanda and Shawn teo today..Went for movie..And dinner..Damn..Everytime i go out with them..I'll be spending at least 50bucks..Expensive lifestyle they have..Well i can't blame them for being so rich..I'm just poor..=/(i no longer take allowances from my parents..So don't say i'm rich anymore..)

Hmm..it's 0311 now and i'm still talking to babe(melissa),i'm glad we had that talk..=) I guess she's still unsure of her emotions..I mean,hey it's her first time..Well..My friend knows the guy that liked her..And i know her..How surprisingly small this world could get..Well..We crap most of the time..Like..Side tracking here and there..HAHA..Man i just love teasing her..Entertaing..=D

Well..Training's like in 5more hours..?And here i am BLOGGING..What's wrong with me..??Haha..Sleepless nights and silly thoughts..I' rather stay up..=) Well..I've got to get up at 6,so it'll be 2 and the half hours more to go..Hmm..Monday's the day..!!Yay..Camp..What i like most about camps is..I dont have to be alone at home thinking how fucking boring my life is..

Why do i always take so long to say "bye"..?It's like,yeah nights,bye,cya,yeah,sweet dreams,yeah,you too,cya,yeah,bye,bye,=),=)..Man..I guess it's the hardest part..And the one that i hate most..

I guess some or rather most things are better said in person..It'd feel different,sound different..And the outcome..?Questions that could never be avoided..You cant just shut up..aite?..It just makes things worst..

breakfast at McDonald's

2007-08-24T14:31:00.000+08:00

breakfast at McDonald's

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end!

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake,literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and theneven my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'.

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.

He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.'

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope.'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand.

I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?'

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how toLOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USEPEOPLE.

An Angel wrote:Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.

To handle yourself, use your head.

To handle others, use your heart.

God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

A Box of gold
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
With a secret inside
that has never been told
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
This box is priceless but as I see
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The treasure inside is
precious to me
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Today I share this
treasure with thee
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
It's the treasure of
friendship you've
given me.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Today's Horoscope

2007-08-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

Today's horoscope 23rd August

Listen to what people are saying today, but don't just hear their words. Try to read the energy level of the person who's speaking, and measure their enthusiasm; this will help you decide whether to believe what they say. Watch out for phony fervor -- someone may be doing a bit of acting in order to get you to believe something. So be wary of anyone who seems too excited. Instead, you should align yourself with people who are cool, calm and collected.

Man..I've been waiting for someone or something to agree with me,couldn't find anyone,until now..!!It's people acting,to put on an ideal front to get what they want..For kids..They would be acting very innocence and be the best mama's boy in order to get,maybe a toy or to go to a theme park..For kids my age..Hmm..Prolly to act as an ideal girl's guy to get someone..Or just to get attention..Man..Today's my day..And so i thought my thoughts are a 'lil crazy and fictional..If i am..So is friendster..Wahaha..Kiss my ass son of gun..
Well..That how most girls get hurt after finding out the truth..Truth always hurts aite..?

Man..I really wanna go Canada to find Pam..Well that is if i dont have anything to do..Well..I gues i really dont have anything to do..But if i go..I'll be so broke i won't be able to support myself..Maybe for a month..And i'll have to beg my parents for allowances..Damn the idea of it just sux..Oh by the way..I've stopped taking allowances from my parents since..2months ago..?I think..I told them it's time they start spending more money on themselves,i assured them that i'll find ways to keep myself from starving..They said i'd die in less than half a year..Sigh..I'll have to agree with them..That is if i go to Canada..On the other hand..I have free tickets to Hong Kong..Actually it's just a pair..Hmm..Tempting..Who should i go with this time..?

ifeelinsulted..i'mutterlydisappointedbyyourassumptions..DAMN..

It's only life

2007-08-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

It's only life-Kate Voegele (Kyle XY sound track)

Tears are forming in your eyes,

a storm is warning in the skies,

the end of the world it seems,

you bend down and you fall on your knees,

well get back on your feet ,yeah,

don't look away,

don't run away,

baby it's only life,

don't lose your faith,

don't run away,

it's only life.

you were always playing hard,

never could let down your guard,

you can't win, if you never give in,

to that voice within,

saying pick up your chin,

baby let go of it , yeah,

don't look away,

don't run away ,baby,

it's only life.

don't lose your faith,

don't run away,baby

it's only life.(repeat)

take your hesitance,

and your self defense,

leave them behind,

it's only life,

don't be so afraid of facing every day,

just take your time, it's only life

,i'll be your stepping stone,

don't be so alone,

just hold on tight,

's only life,oh..

don't look away,

don't run away,baby

it's only life,

don't lose your faith,

don't run away, baby,

it's only life (repeat),

it's only life,

don't look away...

Will you remember me..??

2007-08-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

Will you remember me? Sound track of Kyle XY

I've come undone

Nobody's won

Being alone

Has given me hope

The seeds that are sown

Here on my own

Are giving me hope

Hope to burn again

If I remember you,

Will you remember me? I

f I remember you,

Will you remember me?

t killed me when you left

I become so torn

What once felt like theft

Is making me hope

Now that I can see

Who I'm meant to be

Now that I am one

I can burn again

If I remember you,

Will you remember me?

If I remember you,

Will you remember me?

And it's a silent voice

All I can hear Ringin' in my ear

And it's your silent choice

Bring me new fears

It's bringing me to tears

If I remember you,

Will you remember me? (x4)

i tried my best..

2007-08-23T18:55:00.000+08:00

Well..I kinda woke up late today..Like 1130 in the morning..?Yeah i know..It's early since it's the holidays..But training..!!?!Damn..I couldn't make it for school's training..Well..It's school's self-training..It's a commitment which i failed to fulfill..Sigh..Feeling so rotten inside..I decided to once again go potong pasir and bear whatever humiliation i have to face..People there out-casted me because i'm in NP..Damn what's wrong with these people..?!?! !@#$%^&*()_ I walked in..I saw SUNNY..!!I kinda hate him..He's always giving me those bloody faces..Saw two other guys..Full metal set..Plus stabs and X10 arrows..Wow..I thought they were some pros..Went to have lunch at KFC ALONE..Saw mr tang..He fuck care me..=( Anyways,set up my bow..No warm up is done..Haha..Lazy eh..?That's me..And so i thought my form was gone..It just gt better..HEEEeeE=D I was actually better than those two guys..Yay..Claps*

Then i saw a familiar face entered..Christopher..!!!It's been 4months since he last shot..The two guys left..So chris and i had a talk cock session for about an hour..He's sitting..And i' STANDING..!!Back t shooting..Chris shot for awhile and left to collect his old compound bow..It's down me again..I was left there with great responsibility..I can't go anywhere..Not the wash room nor buy drinks..I had to look after the range and chris's stuff..I was alone for 2hours maybe..?I continued shooting and bragging to myself why did i come today..?It's so boring..No one to keep me company and i became an exotic animal..People mostly from SAJC were standing at the glass panel looking at me..Like..Get a LIFE..I dont even know you people..Okay..I went off anyways..just got home..Feeling rather blue..=(

Anyone who've read this is to accompany me out for a day to chill,play,or to the beach..-.- Like hell ya..Who would be that honest..??Dumb..

2007-08-22T23:05:00.001+08:00

Man..I think a day of shopping isn't enough..Walked for hours and all i got was a bag..Okay..maybe just 3hours of shopping only..I was suppose to go for training today..But i told myself to rest for just one more day..Lol..sinful..Anyways..It's already like 4pm and i was like..Half dead..So darn bored..Man i should have gone for training..Called a couple of friends to go out..Was suppose to catch a movie..But we went shopping instead..LOL..Hmm..Oh i saw two of my secondary school friends..Actually is one senior and one school mate..They both together..Bao man and ying ying..If i remembered their names correctly..They asked me to accompany them for shopping at town..Ugh..Tempting..But i had to go bugis to meet my friends..Maybe next times babes..LOL..Ain't gonna happen..I dont even know their mobile numbers..-.-..Dumb me..Forgotten to ask..Oh well..I'll see them anyway..We live just few blocks away from each other..Well..I just that's about it then..Don't wanna brag too much..People hate reading long stories..And i hate writing them too..Well..Training tomorrow's a MUST..And i think i'll take friday off..Maybe to go for more shopping..??=) Anyone wanna go shopping with me..???

A trip to IKEA's much needed

2007-08-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

Oh look..that's me..-.-
More mirrors
My bathroom
My bathroom again
This is my room

Plain and boring huh..?
Yup..I'm so so so fat i need two beds..
My mini refrigerator

Well..Now do you see why i need to go to IKEA to make my room look more comfy and homey..?

Opening of a new door..

2007-08-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

Everytimes a door closes on us or when we close a door,another one opens..Sadly people often regret on the one that's closed and forsake the one opened..Being ignorant may be a bliss at times..But i'm pretty sure not for this one..The facade of a new life could be seen as one opens..Step through that door and expirence your new path in life till you reach the next few doors..=)

A tribute to a friend my sister..Kristin

She was every little boy's dream sister..Everyone envied me when she's there to tuitor me or unseemingly pumping life's knowledge into my brain hoping i would be an upright man when i grow up..She's hot..yet cool..Taking leaves whenever she could,to spent time with her friends,family,church and me..She brought me to places every sister would bring their little brats to..=P Shopping,lunch,dinner,the arcade or even the movies..Oh all right..I'm always alone at home..My parents are either working till really late or gone overseas for some business transactions..Complicated adult stuff i never wanted to know..That's when Kristin came into my life..She was the one who kinda brought me up..Thought me how to be a better person,of course not ruling out Pam..They are both great people..My life shattered when Kristin left US,left me for a place i know where will tend to her needs,the could turn dull and grey..The picture of a all-so-beautiful life had colours sucked out..I felt alone..I felt lost..Then came when Pam had to leave for Canada..I had no one to turn to,no where to go..When they left,i realised that all along,i wasn't that strong,i wasn't the fearless shawn i thought i was..I don't really have anyone to confide in,no one to tend to my sorrows and boredom..No more sister-brother hugs whenever i'm down..My confidence i thought i once had was never there..They were my pillar of confidence..Emo-ing my life away..I don't see a need to be smiling from beneath untill a new door opens..

In loving memory of Kristin,My God Sister..
[20.08.2001]

Ifisayi'mokay,i'mfine..i'dbelying..

Dumb fuck

2007-08-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

I've been sleeping on this shit for quite some time now..I've been wondering to myself that does going through all this shit with you worth it..?You aren't anyone special,you aren't anyone great..But somehow i still work for you like a slave..At times when you're down,i carried you where ever you go just like Jesus did when i'm down..I look from afar as you rejoice your success with others i smiled and leave..When you're down and hurt..I'll be there..So stand up fucking tall,Don't let them see your back..Take my fucking hand and never be afraid again..

Most people would say that if they could choose when to die..They would die a day before you,so they do not have to grieve and miss you..But i would say..If i could choose when to die..I would choose a day ahead of you..So you'd see how much i miss you,even if it's just a day..=)

Haha..fuck this shit man..I can't believe i wrote those shit..Mushy..Shivers* Can't help it..I just like going against what people normally do or say..Something different would be refreshing..I hate doing the norm..BORING..For couples who no longer have any pharses to use/copy..You may wanna try this..Above*LOL..Get a life..

Okay..Had my eng mech exam today..Guess what..?I studied nothing..!!Can't seem to be concentrating well or sleeping well these days..Having loads of dizzy spells lately..And i guess i know just the reason why..Oh well..One more pathetic exam tomorrow..Which everyone fears..EL TECH..Damn i wish i'd understand..Sigh..Hmm..What should i bring for Langkawi trip..?The thought of swimming with sharks just make things more lively..=D Ahh..It's all bullshit..They prolly just let us swim with some toothless sharks..Oh bite me..BitE mEE..Oh OHHH..Ha..I bet it tickles..

By the way..Thank You Amanda KUKU..!!^^ Haha..The present's cute la..=D And thanks for the ear studs..=) Thank You KUKUS..!!Long Live KUKUS..=D Ehhh..Why no card de..??HAHA..Humour..Joking..

Things i wanna do..

2007-08-20T00:21:00.001+08:00

Things i wanna do after exams..

Go to IKEA and shop for racks and funny,interest and unique stuff to get my room organised with a little touch of elegance..
Fishing's a MUST..My drought's finally coming to an end..
Archery training..!!
Go to every coffee clubs..
Visit unique and artistic places and shops..
Prepare for my SYFC interview..
Get my hair shortened..Real short..No choice man..=/
Visit Pam if possible..
Watch loads of movies..
Go to any beach for cycling or just to chill and have fun..
Go to Sentosa..
Wake boarding..
Work..-.-
SHOPPING..!!
Drink coffee..
Drink more coffee..
Be an inspiration to at least someone..
Hang out with Robinsons people..Missing 'em
Fulfill the promise if possible,well actually it's a deal..I lost..-.-
Wishing upon a shooting star or stars..Meteor shower..=D

The things i wanna do aren't ranked according to importance or urgency..I just typed down whatever comes to my mind..Would i be able to fulfill every single thing i wanna do..?I bet not..=(

Complicated..

2007-08-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm..I woke up kinda early today..Around 10plus i guess..Mom cooked my favourite congee..Scallop congee..Afternoon was boring as usual..Switched on the television at 4..And i watched a show KYLE XY..It's really nice..Been trying to find it since i watched it..But to no avail..I'm such a rip off..Mom brought dinner back..Ate a lil' and decided to go to AMK to get my lenses done,shop a lil' at sports link..Bought some stuff..Went home..

Ain't really myself today..My mind seems to be pondering over some weird incident..A friend of mine called me this morning..She told me that a biatch was bad-mouthing me because my friend "stole" her boyfriend..-.- i was the one we helped them..So I'm at fault..?Of course she locked her blog and only invited guests are able to view it..Though it's easy for me to bypass her blog security and keylog her..It'd be flawless..But i don't have to hack into a blog just to see what's she's writing i guess..I have people around me to inform me..Besides..It's private..I ain't suppose to know..Shhh..-.- Too bad she doesn't know my blog..If she does..Here's to her..

It ain't my fault that your boyfriend dumb you for another girl..Well..What i can conclude of this is,he might just be a jerk or you're the bad one..Why bother locking your God damn blog just to curse me or anyone else..?Shouldn't it be known..?Like it's dedicated to me..Aren't i the one should be reading it..?Then why lock it..?Childish..You're like..18 this year..?Still having such naive thoughts..You should be ashamed of yourself..=X

Hmm..Exam's tomorrow..Guess what..?I studied nothing..-.-..I just hate POLY..Get me out of this crude world..Utopia's what i'm looking for..

Thinking hats on..

2007-08-19T03:17:00.000+08:00

My friend once told me..She said that the people who always seem cheerful,happy and always never fail to smile are the ones who are feeling worst inside..

I'm not too sure about that..But i guess people might find these group of people strong..Having to put on a smile and act cheerful all day long..Ironically they're weaker than what comes of them..The weakest i guess..

Hmm..Am i that kinda person..?If i am..I guess i don't want people to be pulled down by my mood or i just don't wish for people to be involved..Or maybe i just like to keep things to myself..I know i'm weird..That's me..I don't care..So why should anyone do..?

I went through great pain and embarrassment to take a video of the fireworks..So don't complain it it isn't nice..i know Pam would appreciate it..She always does..=)

I'm so darn lazy..Even to the extend of cutting my nails..Man..Someone just cut my nails for me..HAHA..That's how lazy i could get..

Boring..

2007-08-19T01:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm..Kinda boring day today..Opted to go and watch fireworks by myself instead of going dinner with my parents..-.- ewww..Anyways i'm glad i went to watch the fireworks..Nice..Then headed down to cafe cartel for dinner after that..It sux man..Services there Riggs..!!Well..At least i got away with free dinner..HAHA..They miscalculated..YAY..Headed down to AMK..Wanted to play pool..All tables are full..Though its like 1am..?!?Cab down to my secondary school..Had a few drinks..Then headed home..Boring eh..?Yeah..Oh well..It's normal..A pretty O-K day i guess..

I couldn't watch the fireworks with Pam..=( So since she can't come to Singapore to watch it..I'll bring the fireworks to her..Don't really know how..But it'll work out somehow..=D

Nothing's equal in this world..I mean nothing can be..Even for a relationship..Imagine both parties are really really equal..They both go on Dutch,both compromising equally,both giving in the same amount..Ugh..BORING...Then why even bother having a relationship..?It's always better to have one compromising the other more..Well not always..One giving in more than the other at different times..That's what make things going man..That's what emotions are for..Feeling special,touched,loved,satisfied,happy..etc That's why God created Male and Female for i guess..Besides the fact that we must reproduce..-.-..From what i see..To me,regardless of which religion we're from..We pray to the same God in the end,only in different ways i guess..God may just appear in different forms of God to people..But i guess ultimately..It's comes down to all of us praying to the same God..So i don't really understand why other religion can't go to temple or churches..I don't really care..I go to temples too..

You talked..?Ehhhh..I don't seem to notice..-.-

Sweet 17..?

2007-08-18T01:46:00.000+08:00

Well..It's the 18th of August now..My Birthday's officially OVER..Boohoo..Had Eg1 paper today..Man it's tough..None,wel most of my classmates dont know the last two parts of the last question..Darn it..That alone is 9 God damn marks..Anyways..After exam i went of to find cheerful at the library had found out that Hunk Babe and beautiful aren't in school..We headed off,took a train down to city hall..Met them and we went off for a movie..Rush Hour 3..Oh..Before that we kinda had a short game of pool..I must say..I sux..Oh man..Rush Hour 3's story line sux,but it's humour all the way..Laughter laughter and more laughter..But i don't think i'd laugh that much..Not because it ain't funny..I just seem numb to such emotions that are supposed to be shown while watching..Hmm..Weird i am..After the movie we went to watch the fireworks..Hmm..It's soo sooo soooo nice..!!!=DDD Ugh..The worst part is i did not manage to get the finale because my mobile phone went dead..!!!>.<..Sadden..Headed to thai express for dinner..Man..It's spicy..But its okay..Headed home..And that's for my day..So i thought..

Pam called me..!!YAY..Wished me happy birthday..We chatted..Although she already sent me an email,a sms,a letter and a birthday card..^^ I think i can consider the birthday card a letter too..It's filled with drawings..And loads of loads of words..From the bottom of her heart so she said..=) She's the best..Always(a friend,a mentor and my killing time mate)..Heee=D Imagine having someone waiting for you out side your secondary school everyday just to make sure you aren't doing the things you aren't suppose to do..Unbelievable..?She's done it..She wanted to fly over to celebrate my birthday..Well..Every year we would celebrate our birthday with each other either the day before or the day after..But i told her not to come..I guess this year..I would spent the day after alone eh..?First time in so many years i'm alone..Boo..I miss the fireworks..How i wish anyone would accompany me to go again tomorrow..HAHA..But i guess not..Most are still having exams..And those who finish prolly would.t wanna go with me too..I guess i'm just too emo..?Nah..Reasons i wouldn't wanna disclose..I guess i'll be slacking at home..Or maybe i'll head down to watch it myself if i feel like it..Hmm..

Thanks everyone..For the wishes,cards,present and the outing..=),=D,^^
Thank you Wee li kuku..I love your present..^^ Very nice..!!Especially the engravings..!!
Thank You Thank You Thank You..!!=D
Happy 2Months Anniversary Hunk and Babe..!!

Somehow..I dont feel right,
Somehow..I dont feel alright,
Somehow..I dont feel a part,
Somehow..It just seems weird..It's been weird since the beginning..

Photos will be posted soon,too lazy..

You said you'll ask when there's only the two of us..Well..So just wait for that time..My guess,When the time comes,you'd never ask that question ever..Because it'd never happen..The time wouldn't come..

Well..I did listen..=P

2007-08-16T20:33:00.000+08:00

Heh..Okay..I met up with wee li,Amanda,Shawn and tze yang today at bona vista..We took a bus down to NUH..no the way there..We passed by Holland V..I saw a coffee club there..!!!Anyone interested..?=PWell..It kinda took us almost 2hours to get to NUH and find the bloody ward anthony's in..HAHA..Man..It stinks..Hospital never smell welcoming..Right..?Well..We kinda went off after awhile..Had the intention to study though..Hee..At least i learnt something..Tze yang stayed behind..We went off to catch the movie Secret..Ahh..It's nice..I know i know..It's already last season..So what..??It's nice anyways..Hmm..If only a girl like Rain came back from the past and found me..Ha..I wouldn't mind going back to the past to find her too..=DHmm..I guess girls 20years back aren't that traditional eh..?Rain initiated everything..That dumb Jay..Always got scared by her..HAHA..She died because of Jay..A misunderstanding..But i spotted a movie mistake..!!If no one can see her when she's in the future..Why could Sky talk to her when Jay's having the piano battle..??Boohoo..

Hmm..If my interview for SYFC is successful..I just i'll have to work extra hard then..Studying everyday..When i'm not flying..I'll be studying..I'd still need someone to lean on..Pam's gone back to Canada..Once my mentor..Always my mentor..I want a watch brand named Avenger Skyland..It's for pilots..I like..=DAhh..My mommy bought me a ring..Although she already got me a watch..So cool..

Wee li said she prepared something for me..HAHA..But she's afraid that i would not like it..But whatever kuku gives i'll like it for sure..It's the thought that counts ya..?Even if it's just a card..I would still like it..^^So don't worry..Hee=DSame goes for anyone..

Tomorrow at atrium..11am..KUKUs dont be late arh..I need help..SERIOUSLY..

It'd never be weird..You dont really talk to me anyway..So i guess it's got to be fine..

Sometimes i wonder to myself and think..It this all worth the effort..??i want it to be mutual instead of just out of gratitude..If that's the case..I'd rather go..
wo neng yu jian ni yi jing shi bu ke shi yi le

Monkey..=))

2007-08-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

MONKEY 1
MONKEY 2

Today's Horoscope

You can expect a very fun day today, full of silliness and laughter galore. Take time to enjoy yourself, and put aside any serious work for a while if you can. Opt for enjoying social time instead of engaging in study time, and you'll stay energized and smiling all day. It's not that your workload isn't enjoyable -- it's just that you need to engage your fun side more than your studious side right now. It's way overdue for a serious workout!

See..It's asking me to take a break and have fun although exam's just the very next day..LOL..

Continuation of the previous post..

('.')??

2007-08-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

Little turtle taking his daily doze..=P
Criminal Shots..
HAHA..ML WITH REALLY BIG LIPS
Don't he just look happy..?-.-
AWww..Don't they look sweeeeettt.??

Okay..Went out with hunk,babe and cheerful..Bleah,i thought beautiful was going so i could get her to teach me complex numbers..So i ended up doing what i could,shortly after;i stopped..I dont know what to do anymore..LOL..I called SYFC..They called me back..SIGH..I had to postpone my interview till September or October..='((((( But the people there were very helpful..I'm glad they really wanted me to go for the interview..They were nice..=)) 1834846539237 thumbs up!!Anyways babe and i left first..She has got piano lessons..I just wanna go..

I wasn't being hostile,i guess i was kinda feeling rather down at that time..I hope it's accountable for my hostile good bye..sorry..you aren't too sensitive at all..Just a little not so sensitive..=X

You did not cause me any unhappiness..Well..Maybe..??Ah it's just me being over sensitive thus causing myself unhappiness..Boohoo..Why can't i be the ones you hang out with?The ones you always confine in,the ones you held on to when you're down,the ones you call them up just to hang out,chill and kill some time..?HAHA..It's just me you know..?So sensitive..Bad Shawn..

Today's Horoscope 15th of Aug

2007-08-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

What the hell man..?

Today's Horoscope..15th Aug

Memories of an awkward moment in a friendship still hang in the air -- don't you think it's time for one of you to reach out and make an effort to reconnect? Make the first move today -- you'll feel good, and you'll gain extra credit for doing so. It may take a while to get the face-to-face time you need with that special someone, but keep trying. They are not blowing you off! Persistence will pay off in a big way -- you'll have them all to yourself for a long, cozy time.

It's this shit really for real..???!?!?!?!?!?
What if both are leos..?Or the male's a something else and the girl's a leo..?Equality..?
Fuck this shit man..

Should i go..?Should i not..?UGH

What a day..=)

2007-08-14T03:31:00.001+08:00

Ahh..I actually woke up early today to prepare for my self training in school..And i mean myself..10-3pm..WoW..It really sux..Kinda like being in solidarity with no one to talk to or even chill with..It's me,the bloody hot SUN and my lovely bow..I'm improving..I know..But slowly..Too slow in fact,boohoo..Anyways..I was kinda like taking a short nap when hunk came over and slacked..Under the hot sun..I feel bad to just shoot and neglect him just like that,so i stopped shooting and talked..Then cheerful came..Haha..He was kinda amusing himself at the field playing around..Cute eh..?=PAnywas..Lucky Diana was there in school doing her MOL..At least there's someone to talk to..I went off after shooting..While Cheerful and hunk waited for babe only..Well..That's what cheerful said..

Got home..I went down to bugis and waited for the rest of the gang to come down..HAHA..My Robinsons mates..Great people..We laughed and chat and laugh some more..Then we headed down to the steamboat place..We had hell lot of fun..I guess you can say that..?=P everyone there seems to notice us..like DUH..The biggest group and loudest laughter..!!Okay okay..Make it short..We went out..And head down to Coffee bean..!!At boat quay..??spelling error....ops=x Our old chilling place after work..HAHA those were the days..=)) Kinda like a surprise..Celebrated Kelvin and mine birthday together..Both each have a present..a Tee..Nothing big..But somehow..i feel great..The atmosphere they created..The way they make you feel like a part of them..It's just different from the rest..We are a big family..We can not meet for months..But somehow when we get together..All those doesnt seem t matter at all..We are one..=)) Then we headed down to some place like K-box..First time..=PThey sang..I watched and listen and laugh..Everyone wanted me to sing..Sadly it's all chinese..I must really get chinese into my head..I want to sing in front of them too..Embarrassing..But i dont seem to mind..=))Oh by the way..I was the youngest there..Only 16+ going 17..=( the rest ranging from 17-26..Haha..Cool people..Sang till 3am..We went off..Ahh..The parting of our family..Saddening..But we all went home with big smiles..HEEEE=DDD

Thanks guys..Although you guys weren't be seeing this..But,I'm really really grateful to have actually worked there..=) Those days,we were slacking,helping each other check out for the supervisor walking around,having lunch together..And chilling out at coffee bean..Oh ya..Welcome Florance to the family..Our Da Jie..SHE SANG REALLY WELL..I was sleeping..But when she sang..I woke up..!!Beautiful voice..=D

Weird as it seems..I kinda feel that it's pulling us apart,the day i first knew you,you were much more caring and concern..You held my hand as though we were that close,but in fact it's our first study date..Well turned out to be a chilling session..I like it though,but i blame myself for not being bold enough to do the same..I'm a contrast myself,to all;me being shy would be the last thing on Earth that anyone would tag me with that..Ironically,I am a very shy person,prolly the most anyone would have met..Itaintyou,butme..

???

2007-08-13T17:18:00.000+08:00

I'm totally confused..I think my interpretation of statements and words are really bad..I need help..SERIOUSLY..

LalAla..

2007-08-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

Woh..I cant believe i've been sleeping late these days..Hmm..Wait a sec..I've been sleeping late all along..LOL..Irony..I just contradicted myself..Dont i always..??=POkay..I dont think i'll have much to blog today..I woke up at 1pm today..Was woken up by my dad actually..He wanted us to have lunch together because my mom brewed emperor's chicken..WOW..And that's a really big deal..?Come to think of it..Yeah it is a big deal..My mom rarely cooks..So i guess it's worth being interrupted while i'm sleeping..?I dont know..You tell me..9more hours and i'll be in the school field..Training all by myself..How sad eh..?Oh well..At least i'm alone..Cool..-.-

This friday would be my 17th year on Mother Earth..She fed me well..i guess..Well i doubt it's gonna be some sweet 17 or something..It's gonna be as usual..Dull and boring..Wondering why..?MY BIRTHDAY ALWAYS CLASHES WITH BLOODY EXAMS..Oh well..I dont mind anyways..I like AUG and i like 17..So i'm fine with it..=)= double faces..Mixed emotions..After Pesta Sukan..I'll stop Archery for about A YEAR..!!Saddening..No choice though..I have one commitment way more important than this one..

I've led a life of a normal being,a loner,an out-cast,i guess it's time to go back to my kinda life..Time to get my hair shortened..Chatting with golf-mates over cups of coffee..Anyone kind enough to remind me to call SYFC this morning to confirm my interview..?i'd be grateful..

i need you by my side,as much as you need him by yours..I tired my best to always be there for you..But sadly you dont see it that way..It's more of convenience i guess..You find him when you're down,troubled or just wanna kill time..I am there for you,ironically you want him to be there for you..Contradicting statements made by you,i tired to show i believe..I tried my best to smile..The facade of a human figure building up at sight..I see you now..But you dont..

Ironically Saddening..?I thought so too..

Curiosity kills the cat..So just nib the bud,end your curiosity before it kills you..

Time to pull up my socks..

2007-08-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

Ahh..I guess i've being slacking way too much for both my studies and archery..It's time to buck up Shawn..!!Study week..Which means..No school..!!But i think i'll pass..I would be going to school daily i guess..Not to study..But to train..Morning till late noon..Then study from late noon till night..Prolly not in school..I need someone to teach me..Only person..ANTHONY..That chee hong guy..Wahaha.Still in hospital..Poor guy..I think i'll be visiting him everyday after my training to study with him..Schedule is tight this time round..No time to slack..I want a fairly good GPA..If not best..Yeah yeah..I know it kinda seems impossible..I'm known for slacking and playing around ya da ya da(roll eyes)..But hey..When things got to be done..It will be done..

Darn it..The field's being booked from the 14th of aug till the 16th of aug..FIELD MAINTENANCE..DAMN..Everytime when i actually wanna do something right..It backfires..='(Nontheless..I'll still be training in school on monday..Thanks to people who helped me book the field..^^

Anyone wanna open a chalet or something..?

A dream which is about to become reality..=))

2007-08-11T07:46:00.000+08:00

Ah..Kinda just got home..So busted..=/ Went to wilkie's house to chill at night till the next morning..Man..Yau the puss mother high high..That's what we always say..Suprisingly such words actually do bond us together aite..?Fridays..Ugh..I went home from school after finishing like..6tutorials..?Got home..Saw my cousin..Ahh man..She did not bring her son..little sumo..=D Prolly another reason why i feel more comfortable talking about personal stuff with girls is because my mom's side..Most of my cousins are females and most of them,or rather all of them are adults..For my dad's side,All seven of us are guys..Age gap not more than 5years i guess..And we aren't that close..I grew up having mostly females helping me out either with school work,personal problems and most importantly..SHOPPING..=D Though i'm from a all guys school during my primary school..Maris Stella High..Those were the days..But..My tutor..Both tutor actually,were females both my cousins..My mentor..Female,counsoler,female..Basically all females except my best friend,Jonathan aka Jeong..Enough said..I'm already dozing off..-.-zzZ

The reason for this post is to announce something important..I finally received letter from SYFC for my interview..!!It's on the 29th of Aug..='( I'm away for my Langkawi trip..HOW?!?!?! I really hope my training (1year)attachment would be somewhere..FAR away from Singapore..Then it's bye bye poly..Because the course that i'll be taking would be way better than what i wanted..AE(Aerospace Electronics)..Confused and drained..If i pass the interview..I have to give up a lot of things..Like..ARCHERY..and my other little hobbies..My social circle would shrink..It's already . this small..How much smaller can it go..?

I seriously need a breather,make it two..
I need someone who can help me solve my problems,if not just be-BE there..
A wishful part of me..Wishing real hard that reality would be a dream..And a dream a reality..

I hate fridays..

2007-08-10T14:27:00.000+08:00

I hate fridays..!!It's either a really fun and productive day or a down right boring day..Okay..It's always a boring day..-.-Speaking of which..Which day isn't boring..?And so i thought i'd love fridays..Boy i really need to find a bunch of people who'll always be there and ready to go..I guess i ain't such a cliquey person after all..I took a "what kinda friend are you" some time back..The result..It says i'm everyone's best friend..But not really a part of them..Hmm..I thought the test was a fraud..=/

I found a poem about people in l.o.v.e by Angel Tow if i ain't wrong..Kinda cute though..Well that's what people who're in love do..Right..?They accept eachs' flaws and so they're perfect to ones' eyes..

Suddenly had a craving for TCC's wadges..Interested anyone..?=/

No one's perfect..But one's perfect..

Angel

2007-08-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hmm..Came across and angel drawing while surfing the net..I think i wanna draw it..An exact replica of it..Insipred to really draw it..No idea why..Just wanna draw..My forte of drawing..?Sketching..I guess..

Having auto cad test tomorrow..And i'm free for the day..Be there by 0845..52 06 01..Erm..Where the hell's blk 52..???Need to climb hill..?

Poetry..

2007-08-09T20:53:00.001+08:00

Oh my God..I was browsing through some poems and i happened to stumble on some seducing poem..

If Your Walls Could Speak
Written by a female

If your walls could speak,
Would they talk about us
And the things we've done,
As silent they've stood witness?
Would they tell of how
You've anxiously turned me to face them,
Impatiently shoving against,
As soon as I've stepped through your door...
Your left hand holding my neck firmly,
The right dropping my defenses to my ankles,
Fingers exploring realms,
Soaking in delight?

Would they express how you've made me squirm,
And burn with an uncontrollable desire;
How I've moaned for you to go deep inside,
With swelling lips begging to be hushed?
Would they disclose how you force me to the floor,
Down on all fours,
While I've whimpered and writhed,
Like a dog, begging for more?

And of how I've pleaded with you,
To drive in from behind,
s they've watched without a sound,
Us imitating two animals in a mating ritual?

Would they voice how you've raised me from the ground,
Thighs straddling your waist,
As you slipped inside, legs wrapped around,
For a ride to your bedroom,

Leaving them to wonder what comes next?

And so i thought guys were the only ones with lust..Guys show them..Girls write them..So i can say that all humans are the same..?Be it male or female..We've needs that's got to be met..

I'm not a despo..-.-

Pathetic National Day..

2007-08-09T06:55:00.000+08:00

My secondary school mates..=)

Man..This sux..Blogging the min i reached home..Day started off fun..Met up with a couple of my secondary school friends..And crashed our secondary school's national day celebration..We were the lime light for the i guess..The moment we walked up the stairs..Everyone instead of actually paying attention to the performance going on,they were looking at us..Teachers welcomed us..Chatted,FREE food..But we did have fun..Alright..time for us to leave,we went for lunch,i went home,Couples of friends headed back to their polys..Man this meeting was short..It's okay..=)I'm sure this Friday's drinking session would be a memorable one..=D Besides,Wilkie's LEAVING soon..He's gonna give me his snake..Yay..!!^^

I went home..Got some stuff..Went out to meet my poly friends..Decided to catch the movie ALONE..MAN it's worth my money..I actually watched the whole damn show!!HAHA..4guys and a girl..Wei hao,Shawn teo,Tze yang,Amanda and i..I was screaming my lungs out for every single scary scene..!!!Haha..It was great stuff..I give this movie a 4 out of 5..Then we decided to play pool while Amanda went off..Met some of Wei hao's friends..Played more pool..We wanted to go for the countdown if there's any..Tired calling every girl we know..They're either out already,cant go out..Or we should have called them earlier..Man..What a pathetic day..We walked around..Stopped at The Cathay,just outside i meant,sat there..Talked about how pathetic we were..There was a group of girls though..They kept staring at us..Walked a little..Stopped..Stared..Talked..They did it for like 30min or so..?We were hoping they would actually come up to us..Ugh..But after awhile,they decided to go for to guys who're conversing interestingly rather than 4emo guys sitting at the steps looking real pathetic!!!So we decided to just go teo's house and slack..And now I'm back..Went to have my breakfast first though..Roti prata..Had it for lunch and dinner..Wow..What a healthy diet..But it still beats no having proper meals..RIGHT..??

I saw my best friend today..We just happened to pass by each other..When we said goodbye..He shouted 10more days(including yesterday..) with a smile and walked off with phill..He remembered..Teary eyes*7years of friendship..Still counting on..=D

I broke a promise i made..Blame me,hate me,detest me,it's okay..I guess i've got to say i was too bored,too stressed,lack of company and dumb right pathetic..Everyone has to do something with a reason..My friend's quitting smoking for a girl he likes..At least she's always there for him,meeting him almost daily,and sending/writing little messages just to remind him..And i..?I'm quitting for friends who say"hey man..quit smoking..for US.."If every smoker's like me..I guess Singapore would go down..Smokers contribute one of the biggest if not biggest amount to Singapore's economy..That's why the government's taking in more investments and slowly cutting down smoking..They banned smoking in pubs and clubs..See..That's a step..I wonder what's next..It's National Day today..I guess I'll just be at home..In my room..staring at this pathetic lappy..If only i had ore contacts..If only i weren't that anti-social..Hey wait..I'm sociable..But only on approach..

PS:Wee li..I guess you're right..I think I'm gonna give up..Drop the idea..And just live my life..Yeah..?=/

Just another boring day..

2007-08-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

Oh man..Really got to thank all my friends for helping me out with the countless tutorials that's got to be handed up today..!!During eltech class..I wasn't even listening..Borrowed 5 tutorials from Amanda and started my world record timing to copy all in 2hours..Haha..Obivously i did not managed to copy finish..So we headed off to EG1 tutorial..Which is the lesson the tutorials are dued..Another two hours for me to complete all the tutorials and complex numbers chapter+revision..Man i really need someone to teach me complex numbers before i can say bye bye to year two..I know nothing about it..Especially the polar thingy..Blury face*
Thank God Shawn teo was there to help me do my revision after i've completed the chapter..And Wee li was there to help me copy tutorial 7..Phew..I guess if it werent for them..I'd be still in class finishing my work when everyone's gone home..THANK YOU GUYS..^^
Ugh..i left my hard disk with KS..!!Only getting it back this friday or during the exams..=((Without my hard disk..I guess i'll staring into blank space..I have nothing to play..watch..do..without my hard disk..Sigh..And so i thought i wouldnt mind going home early and slack infront of my lappy..i was wrong..!!i take my assumption back..!!Please someone just save me from being engulf by my worst disgust..BOREDOM..!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEAUTIFUL!!!

Hi..My name's Shawn and therefore people call me Shawn and so when i write my name on my work..I wrote Shawn too..If you arent happy with my name,Shawn..Please do not come up to me,Shawn,and tell me you hate my name,Shawn..Because the ones who gave Shawn to me are my parents who also calls me Shawn..And so i shall end this pointless talk with Shawn with a gentle reminder that i am Shawn..-.-..

A shadow of one's life,
I took it's light,
Engulf in darkness,
I brought it down,
Only afar,it watches thee go,
It took it's life,for
Thee to notice,
As time goes by,
It's thoughts have changed,
Engulf by thee,
I became it's life,
Like a bee; i worked so hard,
Like a bee's wing,i am to thee;
Now you see...Now you don't..
A shadow of my life..

Monday Blues

2007-08-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

HAHA..No school today..!!Woke up at around 2pm..=DIt's been so long since i could actually sleep till the afternoon sun shines on my ass..Anyways..Went to meet up with babe at AMK hub to search for beautiful's birthday present..It's her birthday tomorrow..Hope beautiful likes the present..Sadly i cant get to wish beautiful happy birthday face to face..Having lessons till 5..But..Starts at 1..Yay..Get to sleep till the afternoon sun shines on my ass again..!!=)And beautiful doesn't have to go school tomorrow..Boohoo..=/Went to eat pepper lunch with babe..Went shopping..Then we decided to stop bye Anderson to have our sinful delights..=PAfter that..sent babe to woodlands mrt and i headed down to yishun to get my lures..Sadly..The damn shop's closed!!!

Hmm..Topic of the day..How to tell if a person's jealous or the person simply doesn't like such activities going on..??Hmm..Please enlighten me yeah..?

Docheerup..it'sgonnabeyourbirthdaysoon..=)Iknowit'shardforyoutofakeasmileventhoughyouain'thappy,iknowit'shardforyoutoalwaysbethecheeryone,youalwaystoldmetolookonthebrightside, andnowit'syourturntolookonthebrightside..youmaynotbegoodenoughforjusttwopeopleinyourlife, butyouaregoodenoughfortherestofthepeoplearoundyou..maybeevengoodenoughforpeopleyoudontevenknow, beingyouracquaintaceyouaremorethanjustbeing"goodenough"Aminotgoodenoughtomakeyoufeelgoodenough..???

Simply Sunday

2007-08-05T22:59:00.000+08:00

Ugh..Woke up late today,so i wasn't able to go temple with my mom..Hmm..Nothing much to blog about today..I slept throughout my day..As usual went grandma's house for dinner..My aunt gave me chocolates that she bought from London..Went home..And happen to catch the show Bao ba hai zi..Aww..The show's so nice..I want the song that was played in the show!!Anyone kind enough to tell me help me find the song..??Hmm..

Today's Horoscope..LEO..

Somewhere along the line, you may have confused being stubborn with being right. Today the stars are urging you to reconsider your firmly held stance on something, because you are not on the right side of the issue. When you stick to your guns even though all evidence says that you should think things through again, you make people think that you're simple-minded, and that is definitely not the case. You have the courage to reexamine your beliefs, so use it.

Hmm..I guess the horoscope isn't saying me..But someone else..?Bubbles above my head*

I want to watch many many more movies..!!
I want to go out and just laze around..!!

Would anyone be so kind to come up to me and say they will accompany me..?

i will,will you..?

Tired..

2007-08-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

Slept so late yesterday..Was trying to cheer SOMEONE up arh..Hopefully she's fine now..=)..Anyways..i was late for training today..Thank God Silie did not scold me..Set up my bow..Assigned to a board and started shooting..Was at my optimal form..So i wasnt really expecting much..But for some reason..I still managed to get into the first team..My shooting was bad..Real bad..(fast forward)It's time for team evet..So babe,hunk and cheerful when of first..And i had to stay behind..Ugh..Wanna go HOME..Had team event..So afraid that i would pull the team's points down..True enough..It'd happen..Sighs*How i wish i could just shoot normally..So stressed up..Having the best in my team..I am the lousiest amoung the three of us..I need to buck up..I feel so helpless and inferior..If only i had not stopped training for weeks..I would've been the same standard..They train everyday!!Well almost..Exams are nearing..So is the competition..And my camp..Oh man..I need a breather or two to get me going again..

Youdonthavetofeelguiltyallthetime..It'siwho'swillingtodowhatido..Yeahitdoeskindairritatesmewhenyousaythosestuff..Butsomehowit'syouiplacefirst..iacceptwhatyouhavetosay..butiguessi'lljusthavetotrytochange..=/

Simply friday..

2007-08-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today was..rather relax i guess..Met Belle at the bus stop this morning..Oh before that..I met my other friend..Jac in the bus..Well.She met me actually..We chat about secondary school stuff..To poly..To guys..To girls..Ha..How side-tracking can our conversation be..?We were suppose to talk about this evening's party or rather chilling out session at Wilkie's house..He's leaving us on the 1st of Sept..!!If only i can make it in time to send him off..Hopefully his flight would be in the night..Competition that day..Maybe i couldnt even get it..LOL..Well..Met Belle anyways..And we went off the "chill" at some place..^^ she almost fell!!=P(ops=x)

Went for auto cad lesson..I was early..But end up going late for lesson..Last lesson anyways..My lecturer decided not to take attendance..So cool!!After that..My whole class had something on after class..So i went to meet babe..So sweet of her to actually accompany me to watch a movie..Otherwise i'd be alone watching the movie..After the movie..Babe made me wait for beautiful to arrive before we go..I was late for my meeting..But it's okay anyways..We actually talked..?Well not really..But we did..I guess..But our conversation still ended kinda cold..Went to Potong Pasir and realised that the range's closed..!!Nobody's there..!!My dealer did not turn up..So sad..Left the place empty handed..When back to serangoon to meet my friend Dom..Headed to Wilkie's house..Finally met up with my secondary school classmates..Had a good talk..Played with frogs..HAhA..So cool..Fed the snake..Even cooler..!!!Talked some more..Drink..Hey..I remembered to drink leaser since trial's tomorrow..And we head home..Had a sudden craving for fries..Asked all my friends f they wanted supper..None of them wanted except for Meishan..So sweet of her..In return..I sent her home..Talked more..

On the way back..I was stopped by a policeman..Asked me a few questions..He let me off..Kinda in a rush i guess..Saw some policemen running..LOL..So cute..Met my brother's friend on the way back..Then my brother..Went home together..I guess that's about it for today..Simply Friday..^^

It'snotthatidontwannatellyou..Justthatit'skindasuddenanditainttherightplace..ainttherighttime..andi'dprefersayingitwhenthere'snoonearound..idontreallylikedis-closingpersonalstuffwhenthere'smorethanoneperson..i'msorry..

Baking spree..

2007-08-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm..After today's cheese cake baking session..(Taught my brother's friend's sister how to bake..)I baked one..She baked the other..Ugh..She got the order of the ingredients mixed up..I would taste bad..Suddenly have to urge to bake more cheese cake..Does anyone wanna learn..?Obviously i wont really teach-teach..It's just you peeking while i bake..And hopefully you manage to remember..Just crap-ing around..-.-

I wanna watch movies..!!
Drink lots of coffee..!!
Listen to you crap..!!
Bake cheese cake..!!
Eat lots of junkies..!!

Nothing is enough in this world..Once you have what you wanted..You want more..You want something else better..Newer..But no matter what have become of you..No matter how many times you've changed or changed something..Somethings never change..And for that reason alone..It makes you different from anyone else in this world..You are special..We are special..

=) =( =| =/ >.< -.-

2007-08-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

Skipped school today..Suppose to go for Eng mac lecture and play pool with my friends after that..But i was only able to reach home at 9am..By the time i reach school..Lessons will end for the day..Stay up all night looking at two little "infants"..Training tomorrow..Will be the first and the last training I'm gonna have before this sat's trial for the Pesta Sukan competition..I must perform..Letting too many unnecessary factors affect me lately..It's time to focus and get back on track..I'm slacking too much..All i have is less than 2hours to get everything right tomorrow..Can i do it..?I have to..There ain't any choice unless i don't feel like going for the competition..Party this Friday..And trial the next day..Hope i remember not to drink that much..Or i can say bye to Pesta..That's it for today i guess..Boring..Yet safe..

I'd rather stick to waiting..

Good Bye My two little Precious

2007-08-01T02:50:00.000+08:00

AMY & EMY THE MOMENTS SHARED WILL STAY VIVID IN HEART..ALWAYS..

If it should be that we grow ill and weak
And pain should keep us from our sleep
Then you have to do what must be done
For this our last battle cannot be won

You will be sad,this we understand
But don't let grieft delay your hand
For this day,more than all the rest
Your love for us must stand the test

We've shared so many happy months
What has to come holds no fear
You'd not want us to suffer,so
The time has come,please let us go

Take us to where our needs they'll tend
And please stay with me until the end
Hold us tight and speak to us
Till our eyes no longer see

Please do not grieve,it must be you
Who has this painful thing to do
We've been so close we three these months
Don't let your heart hold back its tears

We know in time you'll see
The kindness that you did for us
Although our tail its last have waved
From pain and sufferings, we've been saved...

WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN??HASN'T MY LIFE BEEN MESSED UP ENOUGH??EVERYTHING AROUND ME'S FALLING APART..AND NOW EVEN WHAT'S CLOSEST TO ME HAS BEEN TAKEN AWAY FROM ME..I SEE NO PURPOSE TO BE PUTTING ON A SMILE..THE DAY I FIRST TEARED IN TWO YEARS IS TODAY..

Cheesey wed

2007-07-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

Ahh..Skipping 2hours of lecture tomorrow..And so..I only have lessons from 8-10am..How cool's that eh..?But i have to go home and teach my brother's friend's sister how to bake cheese cake..Ugh..Spoil my day..Luckily i told him I'll only be free after 2pm..Haha..So i still have some free time to do my own stuff..Plan to reach home by 2pm..Bring her out to get the ingredients..And back home to start baking..Prolly start around 3plus to 4 i guess..Hoping it'd be a success..It's been kinda long since i last baked a cheese cake..Fingers crossed*..Wish me luck..=)

I wanna watch a movie..Any movie..Just wanna watch some movies because i'm feeling so darn bored that i could cry a movie outta my eyes..Would anyone(s) be so so kind and accompany to watch a movie..Or maybe two..Maybe more..Lots more..=/

-.-

2007-07-31T21:51:00.000+08:00

Drifting apart,i have no say,
The things they did,like
Of a stage of shows,
They had my back,
They gave me warmth,
The things we did,
We were one.

Show's over,
They packed and leave,
Lifting the shutters,a
Breeze of warmth,
The taste of lonliness,
They had my back,
They gave me warmth,
Walking down the path,the
Loners' Street...

Erm..Emo..?I thought so too..

igotmyselfintoaskepticaldilemma..iain'tworthwhat'sworth..igaveyoumyword..hopingtopassbyasanempty-promiser..

A chat with a friend..=)

2007-07-31T01:29:00.000+08:00

Hmm..I feel lucky today..Came online..Belle the chio bu came and talked to me..Haha..If she sees this..She'd prolly hack me into pieces..=PBut hey..Although she may sound aggressive and stuff..But she's a nice girl okay..?She even drew an elmo for me..Using mouse!!So sweet of her..What's more..She said she dont do it for anyone else..SEE..So good..We talked alright..And she hasn't watched harry potter yet..So if anyone of you wants to go watch can jio her wor..

Always say i dao never say hello..You put busy that's why i dont wanna disturb hor..Fine..Next time i see you online i will say hello..Happy le ma chio bu..?LOL..

Bleah..=P

2007-07-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hmm..i feel so lucky today..Though i left house with a heavy heart because i'm only going to school for 2HOURS!!!!Man that sux..What's worst..?My friend couldnt get the rock climbing shoes from his friend,becuase his friend's climbing too..Awww..But oh well..No one's to be blamed..But everything changed when i went for class..Got 2chio bu to accompany me..After class..have the company of 2chio bu untill they went for their S&W..Made my way to the bus stop..As usual..Anti-social..Then saw babe..Went off*

Not a bad day eh..?Have the company of babes everywhere i go today..Had a chat with my ex..It's been kinda long since we talked..Maybe i should meet up with her some day to have coffee..Yet another coffee lover..^^

Havingtoinitiateallthetimewithoutconfirmationreallyiskindatough..Amidoingifornothing..?Idontseemtomind..Idontknowwhy..

Helpless..

2007-07-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

Helpless

Flashes of thoughts,
You had me going,
You had me thinking,
Am i just another day passed?------>(Means just another passerby..)

Seeing you from afar,
Like a beggar dragging her stuff,a------>(Implying that she's carrying alot of stuff(burdens)mentally)
Victim of work,
The burden that you drag.

Words go off as i speak,----------->(Said nothing..-.-)
I'm helping you not,and
Yet greeted with smiles,
You say it's okay..

Feelingsohelplessasyougetstressed..Hopingicouldshareyourburdeni'mofnohelp..Ifeelshelpless..Iknowwhereishouldstand..=/

Monday Blues..

2007-07-29T23:16:00.001+08:00

UGH..I hateMONDAYS!!Although it's my IS day..But tomorrow's the lst day for CATS which will only last for about an hour..And my S&W lessons are already over..Boring day..Go all the way to school just for such short lesson..Luckily my friend also named Shaun asked me to go rock climbing with him..West Coast RC..Where the hell's that..?How to go?How to go Home..??LOL..Nontheless..I'll be going..I'm booked for the day..At least i have something to keep me pre-occupied..I need a breather..

Sighs..If only..

Blurred..Confused..Hmm..?

2007-07-29T21:33:00.000+08:00

Wow..I was such a pig today..I woke at 4pm feeling good..I guess..I slept well indeed,but my mommy had to come in and wake me up..Oh well..As usual..The first thing that comes to my mind every Sunday morning..What's for breakfast..????In this case,lunch..My mommy cooked scallop congee..!!!My favourite!!!=))After lunch,i lazed around..A..n..d went back to bed..HAHA..Oh before that i read something..Kinda cool,nice and sweet with a little pinch..(Hee)Ahh..I just love Sundays..Well why wont i..?The only day to really have a break from everything..Not going to school..Not having to wakie early to go for training etc..For dinner..As usual we went to my grandma's house,it's kinda like a gathering every Sunday..Everyone would be there to have dinner,chat,the adults-mahjiong,the kids-laze around,ride bikes,play soccer or just watch television together..Time to go home..The moment we all drat..=/Nontheless we went home..Laze around somemore..Haha..Then watched High School Musical while lying on my bean bag..HAHA..Lazy Sunday..After the show,i went back..IT WAS GONE..Why?!..Saddened..Confused..And Blurred..Bleah..

Aminotworthyofaplacehigherthanjustbeingacquaintance..??Thelongeritdragsfriendswouldbetheonlywordtaggedleftinevitable..sighs*..

Remz 07 TWO..Part of my wish list.^^

2007-07-29T03:15:00.000+08:00

Based on the classic Freedom-of-feet concept the Remz 07 Two comes in a brand new gray and white color scheme that is loaded with details and features. The 0702 skate features the brand new Remz one piece soul system which is designed to provide stiffness and strength to the boot.It is also slightly wider and improves locking on. The 0702 comes with the Dual Injection frame from Ground Control, super strong 8 mm axle bolts, 42 mm anti-rocker wheels and Remz 57mm wheels. The unique Remz lacing system provides for a glove like fit and ultimate combination of flex and support.

Features
Features Remz 07 TWO
Classic Remz skate concept
NEW Remz soul frame
GC DI Frame
8 mm axle bolts in black
4 x 42 mm anti-rocker wheels
4 x 57mm/88A wheels from Xero/Italy
ABEC 5 bearings

It's in my wish-list..(Heee)=D

Untittled

2007-07-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

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Finally have the mood the draw again..Been such a long time since i last drew..Well i can offically declare that the things i draw greatly reflects my present mood/feelings..Had my S&W badminton attachment today from 9am-11am..As usual i was late..Luckily the teacher wasnt present then today..The badminton club people were taking in charge of like..4classes..Fairly organised..But still much better than the current situation in Archery..Hey..At least they had things going well..We had fun although it's just taking of scores..We had fun..When for training after that..Man it's already raining when i got there..So we headed off for lunch then bow training..Cool..i never shot an arrow today..Anyways today wasnt really a good mood day..I tried my best to be normal..To be the ever childish Shawn who's always going around entertaining people..Well entertaining myself actually..Sorry if i irritated any of you guys today..=(

When home..Saw my new mobile phone on the table..But my mom bought the wrong colour!!i wanted white silver..But she gotten the chrome silver..Which is close to black..=((

I guess i shouldn't even try..I doubt my chances of...Doesnt even hit below average..

Thank you Weeli for listening to me crap-ing and complaining..=)

My Life

2007-07-26T22:08:00.001+08:00

MY LIFE

In darkness breath,
I walk alone.
Hidden in my corner,
Shadowed by my flaws.

In the Sun on goes,my
Suit of life.
In search of life,
In search of purpose.
With a life that no one had lived,
With a purpose no one fights for.

A Wanderer of life,
With hopeless dreams,and
Endless pains.
Losing the Sun,that
Gave me hope.

A Wanderering soul,
So frighten and,
So LOST..
My Life
[18.07.2006]

No one means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean, for words are slippery and thought is viscous..

People seem to really read through blogs than reading people's profile..So i guess i'd put it here..

shine after rain..

2007-07-26T21:28:00.001+08:00

Ahh..Everything seems to be working today..Friends were back to normal..Couples smiling..Guess the dark clouds that covered the Sun of each category has finally drifted away..?Lets hope that the next time the dark clouds drift by the Suns..It'll be strong enough to shine through 'em..?Fingers crossed..But i'm sure we'll all pull through those dark days together..=)

Friends are again,talking
Couples are smiling,
But someone's missing,
Cheeful'rs not around!!
Man i missed you,
A day or two,
It doesn't seems to matter,
Your presence's needed and loved,
Your laughter your jokes,i miss 'em all,
Friends are again,talking
Couples are smiling...=)

A promise made,
It wouldn't be broken,
I said i will,
You said you'll trust,-------------->though not verbally,but i know you do..
The drive to be committed,
The task to be done,as
The due date counts,
Before thee gets older..
It shall be condemned..

2007-07-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happened in school today..Lectures were slack and lecturers dont care..When to meet hunk and babe as we headed off to west mall to meet beautiful..It's babe's birthday today..!!But nothing seem to go off well today..Beautilful was treating me so transparent..Like..Kinda childish..=X What's worst..Babe and beautiful went to the only for girls shop knowing that the both of us wouldnt go..Hunk and i headed off to K-pool..Played like 2games maybe..came..We went out..And almost instantly we got drag to the neo-print shop..Which of course..I retaliated without a second thought..Forgotten to tell them that i never like taking neo-prints..Even if i would..I'd be crazy at that point of time..Babe drag..I pull..It goes on and on till babe gave up..She got pissed..So did i..Both babe and beautiful went to a Jap restaurant..I wanted to go off..Hunk stopped me..And promised me to leave at 6pm sharp..I knew he wouldnt be able to keep up to that promise he made..It's his girl in there man..I wouldnt keep my word too if i were him..But i went in anyways..Cold war between the sexes..Again..I was transparent to beautiful..Doesnt seem to be in existence in the world her eyes painted..Prolly a little dirt was stuck in her eye blocking her view of me..incomplete picture..Seated there for awhile..Then got real pissed off and left..Naturally babe would go after him..Left beautiful and i there..She so nosey..Bleah..Keep looking at them..I called someone..And went off to meet that someone..I went off..Feeling pissed though..But no one came after me..BooHoo..At least with me gone..Thing would be much better i guess..I was the cause of the would emotion up-rise..I caused all their mood to go down..I ruined their day..Babe's day..=( Well..i went off anyways..Went to meet someone and off to shop for babe's present..Ugh..Had packed food for dinner today..I miss home cooked food..That should round up my day..What a day huh..?I was the wet blanket..

If i were to despise a person..That person wouldnt even be my friend..I dont despise my friends..I may have sent to wrong message somehow..But my intentions were never meant to hurt or discourage..You're a great friend..I can see that..So are the rest of you..It's nice to be alone in your own world without disturbance..But it's a blessing to be with a bunch of great friends..Never giving up hopes on you..Always there for you no matter what wrong you've done..Always forgiving and forgetting..Okay..maybe not so much on the forgetting part..But..It'll work out anyhow..I just know it..=) My intuition says so..

Confused..

2007-07-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

Had a rather short day today,woke up late..Skipped 2hours of lessons and went to school for a math quiz..I guess i screwed it..My whole class maybe..When for archery training right after my lessons..set up my bow..and it started to drizzle..How WONDERFUL..Training kinda sux,form training..UGH..Man that riggs..

When for dinner..At the same old alumnni..Then beautiful came..We bearly talk though..Or rather not a single word was exchanged..Guess the both of us were feeling kinda awkward after the talk we had..Exchange of textes was how we have our conversation..Not even a talk..Our food came and beautiful left..Mixed emotions arise..Was having it since our conversation..And the cause of me being emo..ARGH..Fuck this feeling man..Giving myself some false hopes,ones i never should have thought of..It'd never happen..But i did anyways..Dumb me..-.-That's my day for today i guess..Nothing much happened..Just me being emo..Oh..Hunk gave me a really cute voodoo doll..!!I can't Thank hunk enough..Love you lots..!^^

Andsoithoughtiwasspecial,iwasn'tthecauseofthosetearsofsorrow,iwasthecauseforthosepastmemories return..Falsehopesandstuff,imademyselfalaughingstalk,justareplacement..whatever..I'M JUST A KID..

What a Day..

2007-07-24T01:09:00.000+08:00

Had a rather sinful day today..23rd-july i meant..Had CATS class only today..That was relaxing..Well was forced to go for lessons or i'll have to forgo some marks,what a crude way for a lecturer to make everyone turn up..And i mean..EVERYONE..Today's lesson..Go to class..Seated down..And watch at my fellow classmates present their products because i already did the previous week..How "productive"..After class a group of us headed down to the gate at canteen 2,on my way there,babe called out my name,not suprised that beautiful was there too..But i'd went off anyways..I did something really bad that beautiful was unhappy about..Fastforward..Went to the library and i actually watched the news..babe came to join me later on and we ended up chatting about..eh hem..then hunk appeared,and we went off..Or shall i say,they went off and i went to my granny's place..I can see they really missed me..So did i..=)After dinner as usual went home..Mommy couldnt make it on time to go shopping for a new phone with me..So i'm home..slacking..Watching Tian Shi Qing Ren,borrowed from my friend,Amanda..Well..My day ended like that..So normal..So slow-mo..And so i thought..

Beautiful talked to me..Asked me a question acutally..Did i go back to smoking..?Yes i did..With reasons beautiful cannot accept..I guess even there's a valid reason..Beautiful still wouldnt be able to accept me smoking again..

I'msorryiforhurtingyouinsuchaway..Youmaysayit'sokay,youmaysayit'sjustyou..But hurtingyouwouldn'tevenbethelastthingonEarthiwouldwanttodo.Neverdidcrossedmy mindyou'dbethataffectedbymyactions..Neverthoughtyou'dcaredthatmuch..Eventothe extendthatyoualmostcried..Ormaybedidalittle..Idontknow..Isitjustmeyoucarethat much,orisjustmethinking it'dbethatway..?Iwishyouknew..Foryou..I'llstop..